Rating: 5 stars
Genre: New Adult, Contemporary Romance
There are different types of heartbreak.
Most of them are related to loss. You can lose a job, a loved one, yourself. The strangest type of heartbreak though is the one that belongs to someone else, yet you experience it through her eyes, her damaged sanity and broken soul.
But that is not the case with The Monday Girl. Because this heartbreak belongs to you.
“I am his Monday girl.”
Kat Firestone is an actress that has lived in shadows her entire life. Forced to a path she didn't choose, tortured by her failures, she never expected to land a dream role that would take her to Hawaii, starring next to the Sexiest Man Alive and unrepentant heartbreaker, Grayson Dunn. She knew she should not fall for him. Every brain cell warned her that he was dangerous. That he would crash her in the blink of an eye. But hope is a treacherous thing, and so is love. None of them is enough.
“Grayson Dunn is in my head. He's under my skin. He's invaded me like a deadly disease and hijacked my immune system until I don't even bother fighting it anymore. I look at him, and I'm twisted into knots. Tangled into a messy spool of desire and desperation.”
That's the movie Kat and Grayson star, but it also describes their affair. No maps, no routes, no knowledge whether you'll meet shore, tumultuous waters or sharp rocks that will pierce you and mutilate you until there's nothing left of you, just shreds of your former self. The Monday Girl is Julie Johnson's most daring work, because her main characters are deeply flawed. Kat is really messed up, drowning in self-loathing and insecurities, hiding behind her bitchy attitude because making herself vulnerable is terrifying. Snarky and sarcastic, she makes her problems go away by drinking, yet deep down she longs for someone to truly see her and embrace her for what he sees. And while Grayson does see her, he won't embrace her. He's selfish and cruel, yet honest about his opinion on love and relationships. Sexy and charming, flirtatious and arrogant, he will make your cheeks flush and your toes curl. But your heart, well, the heart he steals without even trying, he will mistreat it. Break it, like he broke Kat.
“What if you live your life expecting a romance novel, and get tragedy instead?”
The Monday Girl is not simply Kat's story. It's my story. It's your story. It takes you back to all those moments of silent tears, despair and inadequacy, when you weren't enough to change him, to create something good with him because he never gave you the chance, and all you got were hollow promises of someday or a more direct You are the only risk I never took and I will hurt you that shatter your self-esteem to pieces and make you wonder what the hell is wrong is you. And you ignore, or worst, break the nice guy who truly cares about you because you are a masochist and long for him, even after all the suffering and the humiliation.
“A boy made of stardust and selfishness; a girl filled with fire and fury at the world. We are a tangle of emotional wreckage, two broken messes thrown together, trying to navigate something we can barely comprehend.”
A story made of lust and passion. An author whose words tug at my heartstrings with alarming precision every single time, as if she has dissected me and memorized my desires, my hopes and my pain. Kat is not the Monday Girl. she is one of the many Monday Girls who fooled themselves with flights of fancy but ended up clutching their chests in order to make sure that the silliest organ was still in place.
We are all Monday Girls.
*ARC generously provided by the author in exchange for an honest review*