“Death is her burden. Wherever she goes, it follows. I'm the girl whose gift is chaos.”
Edinburgh is gone.
The fae left nothing but blood and ashes because Aileana did not stop them. Because she failed. Now she is trapped and tortured by Lonnrach, losing pieces of herself as days, weeks, months pass by. When she finally escapes with the help of Kiaran's sister, she realizes that the war is far from over. Lonnrach is searching for the most powerful kind of magic to overthrow the righful Seelie and Unseelie rulers, and Aileana must stop him before it is too late. Caught between ancient rivalries and fae politics, fighting for what's left of humankind, torn between her love for Kiaran and the truth about his past, looking for a way to unlock the vastness of her powers, Aileana Kameron, the last Falconer, the warrior, the liar, can either save the world or end it.
“Perhaps he's my curse. Perhaps I'm his weakness. Together we left the world in ruins.”
My words are inadequate to describe this achingly beautiful and brutal book. The Vanishing Throne was one of the most wonderful, gut-wrenching and riveting reading experiences of my life. I cried and cried, because my body was not a vessel strong enough to contain the magnitude of the feelings that boiled inside me. The love, the pain, the guilt, they were tangible. They were portayed so vividly that they broke me piece by piece. Elizabeth May, tha gaol agam ort le m'uile chridhe.
I love you with my whole heart (because yes I found the translation and yes I sobbed ten minutes straight).
“Somewhere between our hunts and our kills and our kisses, he left his mark on my bones.”
The Vanishing Throne's ambience was gloomy, grim. Mystical. We faced the aftermath of a war, the struggles to survive in a place far from friendly and safe. We tasted cinder and blood, fear and despair. The fae lore was enticing, and each revelation more shocking than the previous. Mechanical monsters, vampire-like fae, a mysterious crone and two siblings whose fate was predetermined but refused to accept that. A creator and a destroyer. Light and darkness, compassion and bloodlust, an eternal dance of life and death that keeps the world in balance, a dance you could not escape, not even to take a breath.
“Aithinne wasn’t hardened by war; she was humanized by it.”
Aithinne was a remarkable character that could make you laugh and hurt, all in the same page. Except her sense of humour, she Aileana had many things in common. They were broken but they survived. Aileana wanted to escape from the mostrous, savage part of her that relished slaughter and violence. She was consumed by remorse and guilt, dealt with PTSD and fought for her memories and her soul. She grew up. And she kept kicking ass.
“You want to know what you mean to me, Kam? Every day I wonder when your human life will end, and it scares the hell out of me. You make me wish I didn’t have for ever.”
I fell in love with Kiaran in the previous book, but in this one, I understood him. I found out the reasons that made him sullen and brooding, the reasons he ran from his past and decided to kill his own kind, and my soul ached for him. There is so much depth in him, shame and anger and regrets, but he loves Aileana so fiercely and passionately that he made my heart sing. They became one of my all-time favorite couples, because despite their differences, they're connected. They're in sync. I kept re-reading their scenes, I relished their moments of vulnerability, their touches, their whispers, their kisses. They reminded me of Buffy and Angel and that scares the hell out of me. I refuse to believe they're cursed or doomed. They're meant to be.
“Ha! There now. You're mine, Kiaran MacKay.”
The way he looks at me steals my breath. He's gazing up at me like I'm powerful. Like I'm magnificent. I don't think I've ever felt more beautiful.
Then he breaks my hold and he's whispering against my lips. “I am,” he tells me. “I'm yours.”
You can imagine my anguish and my sorrow when, after this terrible, devastating ending I realized I'll have to wait for months until the final book is here.
To every single human out there, READ THIS BOOK.