“I thought, briefly, that I would never feel as intensely connected to the world, to another human being, as I did at that moment.”
I thought that I would never feel as intensely connected to a book as I did while reading Me Before You.I finished it a few hours ago but I'm still crying.It feels like I've shed an ocean of tears,fat,ugly droplets of liquid pain,but there are always more.My hands are shaking while I type,my jaw is trembling and God,words don't seem enough to describe what I feel.Imagine a tornado sweeping off everything in its path.Imagine huge,menacing waves crashing the rocks.Imagine a raging storm.A clouded sky.Combine all of them.There,that's what I feel.
“...I told him a story of two people. Two people who shouldn't have met, and who didn't like each other much when they did, but who found they were the only two people in the world who could possibly have understood each other.”
After an accident that left him stuck in a wheelchair,unable to use his legs and hands,Will gave up on life.He used to be an adventurous person,ambitious and confident,living every moment to the fullest and now,he couldn't even eat without help.And then he met Lou.Lou with her crazy clothes and lack of dreams invaded his life,trying to make him find beauty in simple things and adapt to his new reality,but she didn't predict that she would change as well,that she would find her place in the world and someone to really see the potential and fire in her.Someone to understand.
“I just...want to be a man who has been to a concert with a girl in a red dress. Just for a few minutes more.”
Jojo Moyes' writing is hauntingly beautiful.Poetic.She made you hope,and then she scared you to death.Hope and terror,terror and hope danced and kissed and fought while the clock was ticking,while you held your breath and prayed,while you laughed and cried.There would be gut-wrenching moments and then some sweet moments that warmed you up and made you forget the knife that was twisting in your heart.She created flawed,realistic characters,family relationships that were far from perfect but you sympathized with each and everyone of them.She made you contemplate situations with religious,moral and legal aspects and understand the reasoning of both sides,even though it was killing you inside.She made you appreciate the things you take for granted.
“You only get one life. It's actually your duty to live it as fully as possible.”
I loved Lou and Will with all my heart,as individuals and as two people who fell in love when they shouldn't.Will's sarcasm was his last defense,he didn't want pity or sympathy,he just wanted the ability to make his own decisions and even that was taken away from him.Lou on the other hand was always treated as if she was stupid,she never had the chance to shine,she never dared dream a different,more exciting life.Two lost souls with nothing to fight for crossed paths.Two blind people found their light.And for a while,it was enough.
“How is it you have the right to destroy my life, I wanted to demand of him, but I’m not allowed a say in yours?”
It hurts.It hurts so darn much.But I have to be strong,for Lou and Will.To live my life fully.And I am thankful I witnessed the most tender love story.One day,I'm going to visit Paris,drink coffee in Le Marais and imagine that the girl with the bee tights is walking next to the love of her life,who makes fun of her clothes but holds her in a strong grip and never lets her go.